The Beginning

There are so many wonderful blogs I have read and kept up with that gave me the strength to become comfortable with who I am. I would have liked to follow many from the beginning of the journey and that being the case I thought I should start mine from just that....the beginning. It took me a long time to get here but I am excited for what the future holds.


Tuesday, April 23, 2013

Moving, fantasies and great finds

It's finally happening, we found a great house and we are all moving in together. Everyone is very excited and it is actually making the nights we have to be apart even harder on us all but with the date less than a month away it's something we can all live with.

There are so many changes associated with the move they can make one a bit dizzy at times. Actually having help with the day to day part of raising young children is going to be awesome. Nights are already so much easier when Daddy visits and we can divide and conquer on the homework or he just handles it all so dinner gets on the table at a decent hour. Then having him split the straightening up or doing it all himself so the kids get mom time is really helpful. Accepting this help used to be an issue that would result in punishments because watching him do that stuff really caused a lot of stress and attitude but now we just run through it as a team and it really benefits all since there is more time for all of us to spend together at the end of the night.

Other things will change as well and the feelings associated with that are hard to capture. Daddy is strict, he likes planning and lists and healthy eating and sometimes those are just not that important in one’s mind. Don't get the wrong idea, the kids never miss activities or assignments but there are many times when one is running around still filling up the water bottles and looking for jerseys while shoving a donut down her throat when really we should be pulling out of the driveway to get to the game 20 minutes early.

Menus we will be planned, closets organized and approved slave clothes will be picked at the beginning of the week. Schedules will be made and they will be followed and it will be different but it is something that one is just well plain happy about.

There will be additional changes and that has become apparent with other interactions as well. Slave was late after meeting some friends for drinks the other night and called three minutes after she was supposed to be home which is NOT ok. There was a punishment for it of course but while that spoon rained down on her behind Daddy was quick to tell one next time this happened (this is the 2nd time in the last 10 months) she would be diapered, sent to a dark room and restricted from future plans. Basically saying if you are going to act like a child you are certainly going to get treated like one. It was shocking to hear things were going to this far but really she found peace in knowing that that's how things are going to be. Daddy was also quick to let her know that if she would have called earlier than her curfew he would have just told her to stay out longer.....lesson learned.

Now for the fantasy part. For whatever reason reading about subs being made to endure riding a saw horse has always had a certain lure. Not sure where this comes from but it's just something about being observed in such a pained state by Daddy and knowing he is getting pleasure out of it that sound enticing. Something about being helpless and not being allowed to get down until he says so  is exciting and if he comes over to cause more hurt even better. These fantasies were shared with Daddy some time ago, at that time we had not been participating in a lot of play that is quite regular to us now and it was something he said he could just never bring himself to put one thru. One was not terribly disappointed by this as the fantasy although hers was also quite bothersome as some fantasies tend to be.

Not too long ago we drove to a friend’s house who was packing up a family home and getting rid of all the contents. She offered that we take a look around to see what we needed for the move. When we finished she asked Daddy if he wanted to go downstairs to look at all the tools since her father was a carpenter and he had stored lots of things down there that were for the taking. We had the kids with us so slave took them and headed outside while Daddy went downstairs to check it out. When they were done we said our goodbyes and planned to come back with a truck.

While we were driving home one of those pop songs kids love came on the radio. Daddy turned up the back speakers and the kids starting singing on the top of their lungs effectively blocking any conversation we may be having from them. He looked over with a smile on his face and asked  "Guess what was in the basement slave?"  What Sir? one answered having not a clue what he could be so giddy about. "Saw horses, two of them and one that is equipped electrical outlets." His smile became wider as one gulped in astonishment. After taking a moment one inquired as to if he asked about them to which he answered "Oh yes, we will be picking them up with everything else, how awesome is that?"

Slave became a little quieter after that conversation but she was a bit excited as well and is looking forward to really being able to be in the 24/7 relationship we both so desire.

28 comments:

  1. Great news! so happy for you all.

    we have a wooden pony..its one of those love/hate things lol

    xx

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    1. LOL, it will probably be the same way on this end...maybe one day there will be a post about it. Daddy said it needs to be sanded an cleaned which seems like a project we will be working on together. That should be build the anticiptation for sure.



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  2. I am so happy to read this! It must be so hard not being together and alone in taking care of the kids. You will enjoy watching him with your children, seeing his love for you through the little things. And it sounds like you are aware that things will get stricter, and that seems to be good too.
    Now, the saw horses.....Can't wait to read about that!

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    1. You know Julia, it really did not seem that hard until Daddy started helping, once that happened it became hard when he was not around. As time went on it just felt overwhelming to do it without him. It took a long time not to be scared by those feelings and just accept them for what they are. Even though one was married before she was really doing by it herself back then too.

      Yep, stricter seems better....right now anyway. You can direct one back to this post when you read her complaining.

      Yes, the saw horses should be interesting for sure.

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  3. Very exciting news!! Congrats on finding the perfect house for the whole family. I hope we find ours sooooon. :)

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    1. Thanks Tess. You will find something just right, promise.

      It never felt like it would happen for us either, heck our family (less Daddy) has been living with my parents since November of 2011. It has been nice and really tough all at the same time.

      When you find the righ house, you'll know and it will be great.

      Sending you good house juju.

      hugs
      db

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  4. Exciting times ahead for you! Two saw horses - does he plan to do a contrast and compare? :)

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    1. This comment really set off a fit of laughter. He just might, who knows.

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  5. Aw yay such exciting news! Im happy to hear it! As for the saw horse..um yikes!! Youll have to let us know how it is, im very curious. :)

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    1. Thanks Kenzie.

      Yes Saw horses! Sometimes one really doesn't know why she doesn't just keep some things to herself. Perhaps it because she never thought Daddy would actually entertain the idea.

      Maybe he'll just leave me up there for a very short while.....yeah right.

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  6. Awesome news!!!!! As for the sawhorse....can't wait to read about it!
    hugs abby

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    1. Thanks Abby, We are very excited and thinking things will be easier....Daddy likes to control and often gets frustrated when we dont see eachother for a few days so it causes problems, this should be cleared up now.

      It may be able a while on the sawhorse with the pending move but when it happens the details will be here.

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  7. Hmmm...I have never heard of the saw horse thing..something to go research ;o)
    It sounds wonderful for you and yours! I wish you the very best with moving.

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    1. Hi there Bleuame, loving your blog. Here is a link to the first story one read about this http://slavebride.blogspot.com/2009/08/my-wooden-pony-ride.html - Not sure why put it was a real turn on to read, probably the control aspect of it all. It's not for everyone but it certainly got in ones head.

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    2. DB: So happy to have come back to your blog to check for updates or I would have missed the link you shared!
      Oh I get it now! Yes, Riding the Pony.
      In all the time I have been blogging, I haven't been able to bring myself to write about the facets of edge play but I;m with you--this was a great sticking in your head piece to read.
      Hope the move (has gone/going) is happening with ease and you come and write new posts soon ;o)

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    1. Thanks Joey, it all very exciting even though it will be an adjustment, we are in it together and that's all that matters.

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  9. So excited for you. For the house AND the saw horse. Hope this month goes by quickly!

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    1. Thanks Sarah, it should go by pretty quick....there is so much to do one just hopes she can get thru wihtou sassing to much. It's doubtful but still hopeful.

      It would be nice to actually see the sawhorses now one just has a picture in her mind and it is making her nuts.

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  10. Congrats - sounds like lots of learning in your future - all kinds of learning. Enjoy!

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    1. Thanks gg, it's going to be interesting for sure. It would seem each time one learns to change something and does it well we start right onto another........um guess that's what training is all about.

      Its easier when we see eachother on a regular so hopefully that will still be true. Adjusting to living together can be tough but we are ready for it.

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  11. Congratulations on finding a house! And as for the sawhorses - be careful what you wish for lol! Can't wait to hear how that goes.

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    1. Thanks Mrs. D, we are very excited too.

      This would not be the first time one has regreted something she wish for in this area. At least there is some time to get those thigh muscles in better shape.....that should help right?

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  12. Fantastic news DB, I am so happy and excited for you. Congratulations on the house!

    It does sound as though there will be a few changes and learnings. So wonderful that you will all be able to be together.

    You will have to tell us about the saw horses. Gosh, you'd better be very careful with curfew!

    Hugs,
    Roz

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    1. It is fantastic Roz. Yes the changes will be many but in general the total control is something one has wanted for a long time and Daddy loves it too.

      It was stunning when one realized she screwed up the curfew again not only was it the 2nd time in a few months but that was the only two times she went out (not because Daddy would not let her but because she is a single mom). Daddy is just really overprotective and wanted to know everything was OK. It's something that should not have happened. Something else to work on.

      Promise to keep everyone posted when the saw horses are put to use.

      hugs
      db

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  13. Sounds like changes and new experiences and fantasies come to life are awaiting you... Have fun! :-) Hugs, Terps

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  14. Hey there! It's been a while since we've heard from you. Hope everything is going well since your move and everyone is settling in just fine! Please let us know how you're doing when you get a chance. i know i'd love to hear from you!! =)

    *hugs*

    MD's treasure

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  15. Hi, db, could you message me at hischina_doll@yahoo.com, please?

    Thanks!

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