The Beginning

There are so many wonderful blogs I have read and kept up with that gave me the strength to become comfortable with who I am. I would have liked to follow many from the beginning of the journey and that being the case I thought I should start mine from just that....the beginning. It took me a long time to get here but I am excited for what the future holds.

Sunday, March 31, 2013

That lingering tingle

That walk to the basement full of anticipation, excitement and fear. Time alone being so precious sometimes correction and play must be rolled into one. The time spent down there bittersweet and ending too soon but the sensations, they linger.

Tingling remains on the cheek where he slapped harder than one thought he would. A hard limit of his washed away by his understanding of his slave.

Her bottom on fire from the paddling he administered with resolve. A paddling not initially taken gracefully but one we got through together thru his patience, persistence and calming demeanor.

The dull ache of the most sensitive areas that he pinched, twisted and possessed as he filled his property.

The pull at her heart as she calms at his feet, staring up at those beautiful eyes. He lovingly strokes the side of her face he reddened not so long ago. "Your such a good girl, I am so proud of you" he whispers as he lifts her up to hold her in his arms.

He brings her to bed, spooning her lovingly and wrapping his body protectively around her. His kisses like passing butterfly wings brushing against her softly until it is time to reluctantly depart.

Leaving her giddy while the tingling lingers and she longs for the nights when they will drift off together.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Focus Points

Something Master does every weekday and occasionally on weekends is to send his slave a daily focus point. They used to be delivered via email but since we synced our phones they can be typed right into a little shared area we both enjoy. 

The focus point is usually only a few sentences long and simply gives a directive on where he would like one's attention to be for the day. The rule is they are to be acknowledged by 9 am in a designated area where one can type Yes Sir as an indication it has been read. It was learned by trial and error that if one was miffed about the point being made she is still to acknowledge that she has read it and ask to discuss it further at a later more appropriate time. 

The subjects of the focus point have a wide range. Some days Master addresses something he notices may be falling to the wayside on other days he starts planting a small seed of something he would like to work on for the future. Some days are health related and others are simply just reminding one to smile and that she is beautiful.

No matter what the topic they are always there each day. Most days they cause a smile, especially when they are focused on slavery and ownership but sometimes yeah not so much. Especially if one has been acting out and gets called on it in what she initially viewed as an impersonal way.  Then the realization came fast and hard and it was a rather suprising.

At the moment we live in separate homes (which sucks but we are in the process of getting that corrected), Master wakes up for work each morning, gets ready and takes the time out of his morning to write this out for me. He is thinking about his pet, wishing we were together so he could remind her himself (no, not that kind of reminding.....well maybe not). He writes what he is feeling at the time. Why is telling one to focus on the fact that she can no longer make any non-work or child related decisions by herself something to smile about but yet when it was related to tone or attitude she felt the forum for which it was being delivered was irritating? Sure, he may not have known about the irritation but that does not make it any less right.

So, once this was all turned around and mixed together in ones brain, she decided to write about it here. Because really it is a very sweet thing that Master does for her each morning, and although he does not really know this, it would be extremely upsetting if one day she woke up and it was not there, corrections and all.

Monday, March 25, 2013

Punishment Essay

Over the past month slave has exhibited several behaviors which have been detrimental to our relationship and disrespectful to Master. When slave became owned property it was with the understanding that she would follow a very specific set of rules in addition to exhibiting certain behaviours. Slave no longer has the right to question any directives or rules Master gives.

In reviewing the list of infractions slave has wracked up she feels very disappointed in herself for breaking these rules. Slave loves and cherishes her Master (as he does her) and only wants to see him happy. Slave understands when she breaks rules it is disrespectful and shows a lack of consideration for Masters wishes.

It  is understood the rules are in place for a reason and must be followed at all times regardless of how one is feeling about other things going on around her. She is looking forward to getting back on track now that we have the medical clearance to address these issues. 

Slave will always address Master as Sir, Daddy, Master or Sire after each sentence unless the children are present or we are in the middle of a continuous conversation. Slave will be more respectful and approach you with her head bowed and eyes down when asking a question or be bringing up a subject she needs to discuss. Slave will show further respect by only speaking when spoken too when appropriate and not interrupting you.

Slave's text postings and wrist cuff has been forgotten on occasion. She will take immediate action to correct this by giving herself more time to get ready before leaving the house. Slave will take a moment before leaving to ensure she has fulfilled all her obligations before her departure. It is understood there will be no leaving the house without permission, slave understands if permission is not given it is or a very specific good reason.

Slave's tone will be corrected by taking a minute to think before speaking if she becomes agitated or overwhelmed. Having a tone never solves a problem and only puts walls between us. Having a tone does not benefit our relationship and also prevents Master from listening to the point slave is trying to make. Slave recognizes and appreciates that Master does not take a tone with her when she has upset him and understands that she is expected to handle things the same way.

Lastly, slave will not take her water rule lightly moving forward. It is understood dehydration is the main cause of her seizures and drinking the assigned amount of water also flushes toxins from her system which is very important in preventing cancer cells from regenerating. Water punishments are extremely unpleasant and will always involve water followed by a severe paddling and loss of privileges. This has been an unnecessary repeated offense and slave understands your frustration.

Now that we can address these issues slave understands there will be 17 punishments for 23 infractions as follows:

  • 6 days of not meeting water requirements.
  • 3 incidents of improper tone.
  • 5 incidents of not addressing you properly.
  • 2 incidents of forgetting to put on my wrist cuff.
  • 7 incidents of disrespect

This essay will be promptly posted on Slave's blog for future reference.

Slave apologizes to Master for the time he will have to take to punish her when he would rather be enjoying out time together. Slave appreciates this writing assignment as well as it allowed her to look at things more objectively.

With love,


Saturday, March 2, 2013

Spanking Survey

This survey has been really fun to read and has been going around so its my turn to give it a try.


Have you ever gotten spanked?  
Yes, on a pretty regular basis actually.

Are you spanked bare bottomed, over panties, or over clothes?
Always bare bottomed for a real spanking, over clothes for swats.

What is the best thing about being spanked?
The connection we get from it as well as the reinforcement of the tpe.

What position do you get spanked in?
Any position Master wants.

Have you ever gotten spanked in public?
No, but can't guarantee it won't happen.

What do you get spanked with the most?
Heavy wood paddle.

On a scale of 1-10 how much does the average spanking hurt?

Have you ever gotten spanked with a hairbrush?.

Have you ever been spanked so hard that you started to cry?

Were you spanked as a child?

Do you think spanking is fun?
Yes, unless it is punishment.

Have you ever gotten spanked for bad driving (speeding ticket, etc)? 
No, never had a ticket but do tend to drive fast. There has been a few for not wearing a seatbelt.

Have you ever gotten a spanking for no reason at all?  
Well, because he feels like it is as good of a reason as any so no.

Have you ever gotten spanked by a teacher?

Is your butt spankable?

Are you currently in trouble?
No, but there is an IOU list out there with 19 things from when we could not spank after surgery. We are going to be working our way through it, apparently sassiness comes out when one has to rest.

Do you get lectured during the spanking?
Sometimes but not always.

Have you ever seen someone else get spanked?

Have you ever gotten spanked for cursing?
Hell no!

Have you ever gotten spanked for lying?
Flat out lying no, omission yes, it was awful.

Have you ever been spanked with more than one spanking instrument in one spanking?
Yes, Master likes a good combo.

Do you hate spankings?

How many people spank you?
Master is the only one who has ever spanked me and will be the only one to ever spank me too.

Have you ever gotten spanked with your butt in the air?
What other way is there?

Have you ever gotten spanked so hard your butt was purple?
It's purple right now.

Do you think that spanking is a good punishment?

Do you believe spanking has made your relationship better, or worse?

Is your butt red and sore afterwards?

Have you ever gotten spanked with a sneaker?

Have you ever been spanked twice in one day?

Have you ever asked to be spanked for something you did wrong?
No, he's on top of it.

Would you talk about spousal spankings to your friends/family members?               
Only blogging friends

Have you ever gotten you butt caned?
Butt, thighs, feet yes. Yummy.

Have you ever gotten spanked with a wooden spoon?
Yes, hence the purple.

What do you get spanked ?
Maintenance, punishment, fun, stress relief and just because Master wants to you.

On average, how many times a month are you spanked?
15 - 20

Do your friends know that you get spanked?  Only my blogging friends

On a 1-10 scale, how hard would you get spanked for something serious,such as speeding?  
 9 maybe 10

Have you ever gotten your butt belted?
Oh yes, love being whipped with the belt for fun. Hate it for punishment.

Have you ever gotten your butt paddled?
Unfortunately, yes.

After your spanking is over, how long before you repeat the same offence?
It depends on the issue, sometimes never or months but sassiness only a few days.

Does your spouse enjoy spanking you?
My Master does but we are not married.

When is the last time you got spanked?
Wednesday, yes my butt is still purple from that.

Have you ever spanked yourself?

What is the worst thing about being spanked?
When he goes for the thighs.

How long does the spanking last?
It varies

Do you like to be spanked?

Would you describe yourself as a rule follower, or a rule breaker?
Breaker unless they are Master's rules.