The Beginning

There are so many wonderful blogs I have read and kept up with that gave me the strength to become comfortable with who I am. I would have liked to follow many from the beginning of the journey and that being the case I thought I should start mine from just that....the beginning. It took me a long time to get here but I am excited for what the future holds.


Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Deepening Submission

Last night Master and I found ourselves in a odd situation. Older daughter at a sleepover and younger daughter at her Dad's. You have to love it when you get those surprise nights alone. I called and politely requested he get his butt over to my house. We were both tired from work and he suggested we watch one of the Underworld movies which I have not yet seen. I thought this sounded wonderful since I have not watched any movie that did not involve talking animals, princesses or little blue talking people in quite some time.

We settled onto the bed and started watching the movie which he has seen about 12 times. If you have never watched any of these movies they are of the kind that requires you to really pay attention to each and every word to get what is going on. Shouldn't be a problem, right?

Except that as the movie started Master placed his hand around the front of my neck and left it there while we watched. From the moment his hand went around my neck I went into deep submission mode. The longer we watched in that position the more I felt it. Every once in while he would gently run his thumb up and down the side of my neck but at other times he would tighten his hand around my throat and then release pressure when he felt like it. With each tightening of his hand I could feel the clenching of muscles and I am sure my slight movements didn't go unnoticed.

We had been watching the movie for about 40 minutes, me asking a question once in a while since I could not really concentrate. He explained what was going on, happy that I was enjoying the movie since it is one of his favorites. I wanted him to touch me so badly I could not contain myself.

We watched a little longer in silence until he released my neck an started rubbing my lower abdomen. My neck was covered in sweat from his hand being placed there for so long and my throat was still a little sore from pleasuring him earlier in the day after our maintenance session. I moaned in pleasure and whispered to him how wet I was. Master slipped his hand under the elastic of my panties to see for himself, gliding his fingers inside me as I bucked a bit eager to feel penetration. As Masters fingers entered me I sighed in relief, needing release so bad and anxious for his attention. Much to my disappointment after scooping up enough of my juices to get a handful he removed his fingers so he could suckle my taste off of them. Please Master I whispered in desperation, not really sure if he would comply.

You liked my hand on your throat like that. 

Yes Sir

Why

I like to feel your control (He knows this already but he wants to hear me say it)

What exactly do you like

Total Control

He smiled at me and brought his hand to my opening again, he held my legs apart as he played, licked and sucked allowing me to come over and over and over again. Every time I would start to relax he would bring me back up and I know at some point I was begging for him to stop. He finally settled back down on the bed and I rolled onto my side to spoon against his body while I tried to catch my breath. He starting slipping his fingers in me again from behind and I reached around to grab at him, gasping at the feel of his hardness.He removed his clothing as I inched down to his midsection to take him in my mouth only spending a few minutes there before coming back up wanting to straddle him. I looked at him silently seeking permission and climbed on top once the signal I was looking for was granted. He directed me with his hands on my hips as we stared into each others eyes, each groaning as he deeply thrust his himself into me. We both climaxed together and then I collapsed in his arms as the movie ended.

I realized as we laid there that we really very rarely have relationships like that without some sort of pain factor. I have to say I thoroughly enjoy the mindset the pain puts me in during play (and sometimes it's just a hit of pain when we are not playing) and would not want to give up that part of our dynamic for the world but sometimes it is nice not to be so on edge, to relax and feel the total pleasure without wondering when the next slap, pinch or bite is going to sear through your body.

That hand on my throat was so significant, it put me where I needed and wanted to be without needing or wanting pain and he knew it along.

I wonder when I will ever get a chance to try and watch that move again.

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  2. So I would guess you are totally relaxed, right? LOL

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    1. Oh yes, I was very relaxed indeed....but a few hours later it left me wanting more, for sure.

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  3. Hey, sounds like you had a good night last night, too.
    Funny ending to your post....I am sure you will be able to see again sometime, but the main attraction was happening in real life!

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    1. Yes, I bet watching any movie would probably result in us missing the ending. We just do not get that much time alone.

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  4. You are not alone, Serafina responds the same for a hand on her throat, which I do find fascinating. :)

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    1. I was surprised by my reaction but can't wait to experience it again.

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  5. That sounds wonderful! I can relate to not being able to concentrate. I often have to put my head in his lap while we watch tv or a movie and the same thing happens to me. But I think it's a cool thing :)

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    1. Very cool indeed. I definately could not explain that movie to a third party.

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  6. Mitch also does this with his hand and my throat, and I have to say, it surprises me how it affects me. There is something very erotic and powerful about it.

    Dee x

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    2. I was surprised by my reaction as well, it was hot! I know I will get to experience it again soon.

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  7. ooh yes there is something very primal at having them grasp the throat.

    tori xx

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    1. It was quite primal and the tighter the sqeeze the more excited I became. It was quite nice.

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  8. I LOVE when my guy grabs onto my throat. Instant submission for me. I think that feeling is one of the reasons I ordered the corset necklace, to simulate that feeling when we are apart.

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    1. I loved that necklace faerie.....maybe I should look into that. I like the idea of trying to recreate that feeling when we are apart.

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  9. While i'm not a huge fan of Master putting pressure on my throat, just because of the whole breathing thing. i do love the instant exertion of control to immediately toss me into that super slave like headspace, there is no escaping that immediate rush.

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    1. That super slave headspace is my favorite place to be. Since we are so new to this I did not expect the rush to be so strong or enjoyable but there it is.

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  10. Michael will also place his hand around my throat, it's very powerful, even if he's just resting it there gently. Sounds like you had a fabulous evening! ;)

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    1. It was a fun evening. I was surprised Master did it in the firts place but I see that being a regular thing now.... I am not complaining!

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  11. Your evening sounds wonderful. I love it when he does things like that which make me feel my submission. It is very hot.

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    1. Yes, I am always looking for a way to get myself deeper into that headspace, luckily he knows exactly how to do it.

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  12. Hmmm, I have never experienced the hand on the throat...hmmm. Sounds like a wonderful evening, tho. Bet you could "try" to watch that movie again....but it might remind you of other things..lol
    hugs abby

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    1. I agree, I think that movie is out for me....you should try it just once. It was quite powerful and the squeezes were not hard enough to take my breath away but enough to get me going.

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  13. Love his hand on my throat too... sometimes he holds me down gently by the throat with one hand, pressing more when I try to lift my head or squirm, while he does things to me with his other hand and his mouth.

    Squirms galore.

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    1. Oh, Master loves it when I squirm under his control. The hand on the throat definately gets me there. It was awesome.

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  14. I feel like I've stepped into a coffee shop and bumped into friends. LOL

    Hi,Dancingbarez, i'm glad I meandered into your blog.

    Hand around throat is instant submission for me, whether or not we're in a sexual situation. Hand on the back of neck when out and about has the same effect.

    isn't it curious and a little comforting that many of us have the same reactions to certain actions?

    Looking forward to catching up on your earlier posts...

    -FA

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    1. I am so glad you stopped by. I am not sure how we missed each other all this time, especially since our stories are somewhat similar.

      The hand on the back of the neck does that to me too and it is comforting to know others enjoy it too.

      I really lijke your blog and am glad you enjoy mine too.

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  15. Hi db,

    just found your blog via sin's...and I loved this story of you and your Master. It's interesting what triggers that totally "there" in the moment feeling of submission, isn't it? One minute you're "normal mode" and then the next, they do that "thing" and BAM...we're right there at their metaphoric (or real) feet...waiting to serve.

    Isn't it awesome to get to the point when you're begging to STOP cumming? Orgasms as torture. yup, my Master does it to me as well!

    nilla

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    1. Thanks for stopping by nilla. I read your blog every day so it was an honor to see you over here.

      Yep that hand on the throat sent me from normal to BAM in a matter of seconds, pinching gets met too and I know you have a lot of experience with that.

      If you told me a few years ago I would begging to stop cumming I would have never believed it. We are lucky girls.

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  16. Sounds like an evening to remember. Interesting the things we keep learning about ourselves. My poor husband is usually trying to keep me from falling asleep when we watch movies I wonder if his hand on my neck would keep me awake. Hmmmm

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  17. Found you! Will come back and read when I have a bit of time.

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  18. Me too! Me too! I love the hand on the back of the neck in public, and I tremble when He pulls my head back and exposes my throat, presses his palm lightly over it. I find such peace in any manner of confinement or ownership by him...sleeping in a collar...

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